Friday, February 25, 2011

Therapeutic Thursdays

I got a bit confused yesterday. I wrote a guest blog for another blog site but forgot to post my own daily pondering, here. When I realized this when I woke up at 4 am, I was deeply disappointed in myself. Until yesterday, I have kept my commitment to blog every damned day. I have loved keeping my word. However, in this, my new way of life, the one that says to treat myself with loving kindness and care, I am thinking - what the hell. I can blog twice today.

I had a therapy session yesterday afternoon that was simply divine. Deadly painful, but divine. Ever had one of those? I prefer not to go into deep detail here, but let me just share a few things that I learned from speaking with my therapist, and in the aftermath of the session. Perhaps if you want to learn more about any of the following, you could also get a therapist. Or, just trust me and believe that the same could be true for you, in one or more instances.

Things I Realized on Thursday
  • Missing someone is not the same as grieving someone (now that one blew me out of the water)
  • I like to mother the people I love (as in, it's not always a bad thing)
  • I don't like goodbyes (builds on an earlier awareness from therapy that I don't like transitions)
  • I can and prefer to love unconditionally (I couldn't always)
  • Hearts broken in childhood take a lot of time to heal
  • You can run but you can't hide (notice the use of the word "you" - guess I'll need to work on this one)
  • Anger probably really is inner pain turned outward
That's all she wrote.

For now.

2 comments:

  1. I am glad you are treating yourself with loving kindness; I know that is how you deserve to be treated. Two posts in one day or one post every few days is all good.
    You are the best.
    Val

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