"Today My Life Is Enough Just The Way It Is...And It Is Mine"

I had a really, really difficult day at work today. Something pretty awful happened.

And yet, something else happened today that was very positive, even extraordinary. Basically, I got through the horrible thing at work knowing that as horrible as it was, I was going to be okay. And I knew that I would be okay mostly because of today's reading from Anne Wilson Schaef's book Meditations for Women Who Do Too Much. I read it before I went to work, knowing what was likely to happen at work today, and I kept thinking about it as the day unfolded. Here it is:

How wonderful that we not only have the opportunity to live our lives, we have the opportunity to accept them! We have spent so much time and energy foolishly fighting things that we cannot change and butting our heads up against steel-reinforced brick walls that we have not stopped to ask ourselves if this is the hill we want to die on.


Part of learning to live our lives is developing the ability to accept what cannot be changed and learn to live creatively with those situations. Also, we need to discover what can be challenged and to move forward with courage when necessary. Acceptance is not resignation. Acceptance is serenity embracing life.

I was laid off today. But I am going to be okay.

Therapeutic Thursdays

I got a bit confused yesterday. I wrote a guest blog for another blog site but forgot to post my own daily pondering, here. When I realized this when I woke up at 4 am, I was deeply disappointed in myself. Until yesterday, I have kept my commitment to blog every damned day. I have loved keeping my word. However, in this, my new way of life, the one that says to treat myself with loving kindness and care, I am thinking - what the hell. I can blog twice today.

I had a therapy session yesterday afternoon that was simply divine. Deadly painful, but divine. Ever had one of those? I prefer not to go into deep detail here, but let me just share a few things that I learned from speaking with my therapist, and in the aftermath of the session. Perhaps if you want to learn more about any of the following, you could also get a therapist. Or, just trust me and believe that the same could be true for you, in one or more instances.

Things I Realized on Thursday

• Missing someone is not the same as grieving someone (now that one blew me out of the water)
• I like to mother the people I love (as in, it's not always a bad thing)
• I don't like goodbyes (builds on an earlier awareness from therapy that I don't like transitions)
• I can and prefer to love unconditionally (I couldn't always)
• Hearts broken in childhood take a lot of time to heal
• You can run but you can't hide (notice the use of the word "you" - guess I'll need to work on this one)
• Anger probably really is inner pain turned outward

That's all she wrote.

For now.